Friday, January 3, 2014
I know, I know. I have been MIA. And I come up with a list of excuses for it, but what's the point? We are all busy with work, children, family, life...
Can you believe it is 2014 already? I can hardly believe my little family has flown through an entire year with (not so) baby Ledoux. As 2014 approached, I was blown away that a whole year (the first year!) of Ledoux was gone...just like that. Life goes so fast, and our sweet little babes are only little for so long. Before I know it, Ledoux will be wanting to go to the mall and want nothing to do with me. Eeek! Of course, this is still a ways away, but I realized how badly I want to soak up every waking minute with her. Life is about family, not about a job. Its about making memories, not making a paycheck. I have realized in my last year that money and a high profile job no longer excite me. They aren't my driving motivation like they were just two short years ago. Its just not as important to me.
That being said, 2014 promises to bring major changes to our little family. Again. My motto for 2014 is "LIVE IN THE MOMENT." In order for me to truly live in the moment, and embrace everything I have been blessed with, I need to first clear the 'noise' from our lives. How can we de-stress our life and allow ourselves to be truly happy? When we moved to Tucson, we bought our dream home. We bought a gorgeous home, far above the budget we had set for ourselves, and have found ourselves in a place where we are constantly working to ensure we can continue to afford it. In turn, Ledoux has to spend more time at childcare or away from us, because we have to be at work. For a time, I was working a regular 9-5 job, and then teaching a college class 2 nights a week until 8:30 pm. Lee works 13+ hour days, and a good 20 hours of overtime every paycheck. Long days...and for what? To say I own my dream home? I realized as 2014 approached that it just isn't worth it.
So we are selling it. We are lucky that we were smart in the renovations we made, and they are paying off. It looks like we will be able to make a little bit of money off this house, walk away, and buy something else. Something smaller, something cheaper. And the best part? The reason we are doing this is so that I can be a STAY AT HOME MOMMY! With a smaller mortgage payment, I will be able to stay home and Ledoux will not HAVE to be at childcare everyday! I might continue to work, I might just work part time...Doodle might still go to school a couple days a week. There is no telling what I will decide to do. But one thing is for sure... I no longer have to sacrifice my time with her to work in order to make ends meet.
So for 2014, my promise to myself is to live fully in each moment with those who mean the most to me. No interruptions by cell phones and work emails. No being half present in conversation in friends, because my mind is to occupied thinking of all of things I have to do when I get home or go to work. In 2014, I will just be. I will be present. I will count my blessings. I will live each moment.
What are your new years resolutions?